my heart breaks still.

as I once again have a sleepless night. I just think about you. even tho I shoulnt. how can I even move on. you were my only one. the love of my life, that left me for another. the one person I thought would deadass never fucking leave me, just picked up and left. since 2009 you were mine, then you pick up and left and not even a month later you on to the next. so I was nothing too you ant? like really. after all I did for you. I treated you so good, better then most. I put you always first, and this is how you repay me? and no lie, I treated your family good, and that’s how they gonna repay me? lie in my face.

my nigga every fucking night I think about you. cause its like I hate you soo much, but I how can I hate someone that I once love with everything. when I saw you that day, even though we walked by eachother like strangers, I dead smiled, I was actually happy to see your face. i honestly wanted to stop you, and just hug you and leave. yes i said some fucked up shit, but who fucking wouldn’t? i didn’t leave you for my ex, i didn’t leave you for a nigga at my job. you fucking left me, after i supported your ass. i dunno if im just still hurt, but i miss you so fucking much, i miss calling you telling you about my day, us talking about the new music coming out, clothes, life. i miss seeing you, cuddling with you, fucking you. i miss your smell, your nose, and your little ears. i just ode miss you. its been months already, but i thought i would get better, and i honestly gotten worse. i told you i needed you, that you was my everything. you thought i was fucking lying? never. no one will compare to you.

but hopefully ill find someone better than you.

06.18.13 ♥ 0